My Lightsaber Is Bigger Than Yours

8/08/2005

Just hasn't been a great day today...I just found out my Godfather is in the hospital. Turns out he had a stroke and was not breathing. They rushed him into the ambulance, but pronounced him as dead. Later, his heart begin to pump again. As of now, my family has said he is not going to make it. I feel so sad as a man. It has been a while since I felt this way. I only wish Maria was here to comfort me, and keep me busy. It sucks being sad, all you do is think of all the good memories of the past. I even feel more like shit, know my godbrothers will now be with out a Dad and Mom. Since my godmother past away when I was young. Neither my brother or I have the heart to go see my godfather in the hospital before he passes. I think we all feel the same way about seeing hime hooked up to a bunch of tubes and wires in his body. Don't want those type of memories....only good ones, damit i cnt writ know more i feel like crying...

this fucking sucks...shit...